Hey everyone,now this is a really controversial issue right here. Because there are different sides to this stories,most people don’t choose to be teenage mothers as some people are raped or go through situations way beyond their control. While some just don’t expect to get pregnant but go into sexual acts willingly. Now am not judge Judy so I am not here to judge, but rather to tell you and encourage you to forgive yourself and push forward. We can’t reverse the past but we certainly can change the direction of our present and create the future of our dreams. ❤
Getting a positive pregnancy result for sure can seem like a death sentence and an outright shock for those who had zero plans for such an occurrence and yet for those who yearn for it ,it’s a priceless joyful news – can life get more ironic than this?
This is my story
Please note this is a story I thought of and has no linking to any living or dead person, so it’s all love❤. Let’s use the name Amanda.
Now, Amanda is the only child of a preacher father and a business woman mother. She has a caring middle-class family. She’s the pride of her family and of course the love of her parent’s lives. Her academic life is everything to write home about – she’s an A- student ,a cheerleader and is sure to get into college on a scholarship.
Amanda has been dating her boyfriend Peter for about 6months, he’s every lady’s guy and really supportive. They’re both in love and inseparable and in fact they’re planning a future together including going to college together. One night after a lovely date night ,things get crazy, the kisses get deeper,their hormones start racing and a split decision later they decide to have some “sexual fun”. Amanda loses her virginity that night and yes at that point she loved it after all it was with the love of her life- it all seemed right at that moment.
They (Amanda and Peter) are both woken up by calls from her father ,she is still half asleep and everything looks hazy. She picks her phone and sees 15missed calls from her parents and from her best friend. She looks around and sees Peter staring back at her. At that point it dawns on her and probably Peter as well what had happened the night before. Her phone rings again ,her mum was calling she picks it up and quickly thinks up a lie that she was at her friend’s house and had fallen asleep. Her mum seems unconvinced but asks her to return home safe as soon as possible. Her and Peter stare at each other for a bit but no words seems to come out, they clearly both had something to say but it just wasn’t coming out. The guilt building up inside her was too much for her to bear as she picked up her clothes and left without a word.
She gets home to the warm embrace of her parents who were worries sick about her. She quickly explained to them, that she had made a new friend at youth Bible study and decided to see the friend quickly before coming home but she had slept off after a movie. She apologized and her parents didn’t feel the need to worry or double check her words cause after all she had always been there innocent little girl.
She takes a shower after promising her parents to always call them up when she planned to visit people they didn’t know. When she entered the bathroom ,she slid down in tears as she remembered her parents words “we trust you” – she washes and washes trying to wash off the sexual sin she had just engaged in, she felt dirty and filthy💔. Finally after almost an hour of scrubbing and scrubbing, she hears a knock on the bathroom door- her parents are waiting on her to come eat breakfast ,but she tells them she isn’t hungry as she has eaten at her friend’s house. As she heard her room door close as her mother left her stomach grumbled in hunger. But at that pint food was the least of her problems. She finally finished from the bathroom and as she laid on her bed,she received a call and guess who – Peter.
Amanda could not bring herself to pick the call,as guilty as she felt she still somehow blamed Peter. After all how else can you !make yourself if not by blaming the other person involved. After multiple calls she finally picked it up, Peter was all over the phone with apologies ,as she listened to all his apologies she knew deep within her heart that it was as much his fault as it was hers. She just couldn’t bring herself to blame herself. With that in mind her next reply was one she knew would break Peter ” Peter am sorry but I don’t think this relationship can ever be the same anymore, I think it’s netter if this is the last time we talked I need space. I didn’t expect this to happen this soon, I just need time to get things together” . After that she switched off the phone not wanting to talk to anybody.
School and life had been hard for Amanda emotionally, she kept seeing Peter everywhere and though she tried to put a strong facade she was breaking,her defense was breaking she missed him at the same time the guilt of having disappointed her parents who expected her and preached to her to keep her virginity for her husband, the guilt of failing God,herself and her parents was weighing on her young soul. Her parents still reminded them everyday of how proud they were of her and didn’t hold back in using her as an example to other youths in church and even to parents who came with their wards for counseling. Amanda has been nauseous and vomiting for some days now, at first she thought it was a stomach bug and took some drugs awaiting the relief,but it persisted. Her parents noticed and asked her if it was still the stomach bug and she replied in the affirmative. They decided to take her to the doctor just in case it was an infection. The family doctor was called and an appointment was booked, the tests were done at the clinic for stomach infections, the doctor knowing Amanda’s parents as he was a family friend was shocked by the results that came back to him , having known Amanda all her life he was beyond shocked at the lab results in his hands. He double checked the name to make sure it was hers. After some time he gulped and asked the nurse to call Amanda and her parents from the waiting room to come to his office.
The silence in the room could be cut with a knife, a pin could certainly be heard. Amanda couldn’t believe her ears,her parents looked like fishes that had just been brought out from the water. They couldn’t believe the results as they stared at their 17years old daughter. After thanking the doctor they all left to their home, with her !other in tears and her father deep in thought. Once they reached home ,Amanda couldn’t bear the silence of her parents anymore, she sobbed and cried as she tried to explain to her parents how and what happened but she couldn’t seem to get her words out as she just kept on sobbing without getting her words out. Her father walked put on her as he headed to the room without a word. She grappled her mother’s legs trying to get an emotion from her mother, the next words from her mother broke her fragile hear ” I wish you were never born, you’ve disappointed I and your father, you’ve disgraced us after all the love and care we’ve given you, you’re a disgrace to this family and to God”
Amanda expected her mother to be this angry but her mother words cut through her !like a knife. She looked shell shocked as her mother removed her hands from her legs and walked out towards the room she shared with her husband . Amanda couldn’t take this, she couldn’t bring herself to call Peter and tell him she was pregnant. She couldn’t see her parents hurt and losing the image they had worked so hard to build up. She couldn’t imagine been a teenage mother,she couldn’t imagine what all the people who looked up to her will think. She knew there was only one solution, to save herself and her parents as well as their image and reputation. As she felt herself losing consciousness as she wallowed in a bathtub filled to its brim and over pouring with water she knew she had made the right decision, she knew ending it all would be better for all concerned. As she slipped out of consciousness she prayed for forgiveness from those who she loved the most.
Hey guys ,this is a little story I couldn’t help but write. I believe that we all make mistakes but we all can recover and push forward from it. A mistake like this can bring forward the best little gift which is the love of a child. It isn’t the end of the world, be strong .